ihavebeenfloated

House sitting for my sister until the, uhm, 28th? Yes, a little over two weeks up here. Should be nice, a little escape from living in the closet in Chula Vista, don’t think I’ll do much different though… go to work, sit in front of the computer, etc. Oh well…

Bored already, set my computer up and stuff. This house does not get dark anywhere during the day though, so sleeping is going to be a bitch. I’m used to my room in Chula getting nice and pitch black when I want it to, but here I can’t do anything about it unless I sleep on the floor in the downstairs bathroom with the doors closed… which I might have to if I can’t manage to sleep in the light. Oh, wait, their walk in closet is carpeted so if I need darkness, that would be more comfortable. God, I hope it doesn’t come to that.

What follows is some little things I’ve written in my journal at work that I figured I’d post even though it’s rubbish.

And she looks at me with a questioning longing that I can’t decipher. (Haven’t I written this before?)

The mist slowly crawls across the parking lot, encasing everything in a dull gray that changes colors based on the light held within. What a load of crap.

Hey man, what’s the deal?

I would just love to lay down with her, opposite directions, heads next to each other, spinning like tops across the floor. Our heads would be open to each other, our minds intertwined and spiralling endlessly into the event horizon of this massively collapsing, absorbing black hole we call love. And all that we are together will pop out on the other side, somewhere unknown, but certainly hating everything it has become.