ihavebeenfloated

Been busy lately, I guess. I moved on Thursday, that’s not really news to anyone I guess. I could get into more details about it, but I don’t really feel like typing up a bunch of exposition, which is weird, since journals are usually pure exposition. Just been tired lately.

It’s been about three or four weeks now where I’ve only slept under six hours every day, if not under five. This lack of being able to sleep coincides with my quitting cigarettes, and at this point I’m pretty sure all the weird new problems I’ve been having are due to this quitting, even though I didn’t really ever smoke that much at all as far as I’m concerned. So, symptoms are… 1.) Not being able to sleep; 2.) Getting extremely frustrated and angry at everything, which I used to experience before I started smoking, so I fear that this might be a normal part of me. I think I should go to a psychiatrist and see if there is something they can prescribe for it. I think it’s just generalized anxiety disorder or something because ever since quitting, I’ve just been freaking out over every fucking thing. You look at me sideways and I might just kill you for it.

I really want to be able to sleep. This sucks. I don’t have cigarette cravings, I don’t want to smoke again, but this shit makes me want to start again.