ihavebeenfloated

There are few things harder to get over than a broken heart.

There are few things harder to regain than trust, especially if you’re not the type that tries.

I’m going to explode.

How do you convince yourself that you should stop being hurt by something you love so much? How do you bring yourself to voluntarily sever away from your single source of joy, but also your single major source of unbearable pain and anguish?

How do you stop hurting? How do…

That’s all I can say anymore.

How do you?

How do you?

How can you?

How can you do these terrible things to yourself. The inaction and the action, they are both painful. One you live with concurrently while you wonder if the second will be worse than the present. That’s the bitch, right there, you’re so fucking afraid that the pain of the action will be so much worse than the pain of inaction you render yourself unable to do anything.

But you know the pain of action will only last a short time, while the pain of inaction can possible last forever if you let it.

How do you cope with that kind of decision? How can you irrationally come to the conclusion that inaction is the best bet?

Denial. Denial is such a powerful feeling. I don’t know how anyone can overcome it.