i have been floated

the life and times of brad root

You might ask, how much money is there to divide up, in total? In 2024, world GDP was approximately $110 trillion. If we divide that up evenly, everybody gets $13,750. In a perfectly egalitarian world, we all get $13K a year. You can forget about taking a vacation.

the world is so brutal.

it doesn't make sense to me that humans are so much more advanced than other animals, but at the same time the human world is still just as unforgiving.

it's like we massively increased the complexity of the system without actually remedying anything bad about it whatsoever.

we have smart phones but deep down 99% of us are still just baby possums being run over in the street. i just can't believe it. why are we like this?

centuries of religion and philosophy has done nothing to make us truly care about each other. it seems like humans just aren't able to do it.

i'm having a surreal out of body experience or something. i googled the name of one of my exes from 20 years ago and found an article about homeless drug users living on skid row and the hero image for the article is basically just a big picture of her, all tore up, looking like a meth addict who lives in a tent on skid row.

blows my fucking mind. i feel very bad for her, which is unusual because i do not really feel sympathy for any of my exes, especially when the relationship went poorly. i hold grudges for a long, long time. forever?

but i've never looked at a homeless drug addict, at someone who looks like they're in that much trouble in their life, and had it be someone i know, that i can recognize.

like it's one thing to look at a stranger in pain; you don't know what they look like when they're sad or angry or scared, so you can tell that they don't look very happy, but it's ambiguous, you can feel indifferent about it–but to see someone you knew in that state, you can read every emotion on their face, you know how they're feeling, and it's god awful. it's god awful.

the article was from three years ago, so far all i know, she's dead now. i don't think things typically go very well for drug addicts pushing into their 40's. jesus christ, what a fucking head trip.

i downloaded the star fox remake demo, i remember playing star fox a lot as a kid so i expect to experience some sort of sense memory that overwhelms me, reminding me of my childhood innocence, making me reflect on how much was lost on my journey to adulthood. tears may flow!

so i'm about 2 and a half hours into gothic 1 remake and i like it a lot, reminds me a lot of dragon's dogma, just way more punishing. you walk in the wrong direction and run into an adult dino bird thing and it can kill you in one hit, the smallest critters can kill you in two hits at first. so... you gotta quick save constantly lol

The Drama was so great, and anyone who was upset by its subject matter should probably just go jump off a bridge somewhere because if you cannot handle problematic themes and content in your art, why are you even alive? How do you live in the world? But let's be honest, if you're a critic (or anybody) going on the internet to talk about how deeply offended you are by a piece of art, you're a performative pile of crap dancing a little jig for the audience you desperately crave. Do your little jig off a bridge!